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The Wise Panda by Soukyan The Wise Panda :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 2 1 Necklace | Mountain Orc Barons by Soukyan Necklace | Mountain Orc Barons :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 4 0 Pandapool by Soukyan Pandapool :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 1 0 Rhy by Soukyan Rhy :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 5 0 Whisperwind by Soukyan Whisperwind :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 4 0 The best archers walking earth by Soukyan The best archers walking earth :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 19 5 Adda The White by Soukyan Adda The White :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 20 2 Contest Winner OC Commission! by Soukyan Contest Winner OC Commission! :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 3 0 Witcher Contest! by Soukyan Witcher Contest! :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 4 0 Genevive Dieudonne by Soukyan Genevive Dieudonne :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 7 0 Because We Read | Bookmarks by Soukyan Because We Read | Bookmarks :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 1 0 Earrings | Sultana of the Wildewood by Soukyan Earrings | Sultana of the Wildewood :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 4 0 High-Fae Orbs and a Square Slab of Light Catcher by Soukyan High-Fae Orbs and a Square Slab of Light Catcher :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 4 0 Lord Crane by Soukyan Lord Crane :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 4 0 Lord Impaler by Soukyan Lord Impaler :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 19 4 BIRTHDAY SALE!! by Soukyan BIRTHDAY SALE!! :iconsoukyan:Soukyan 0 0


Want your favorite character painted, not just printed? Want it painted just for you? Or maybe you wish you had your own painting to show off that beautiful face in a more classic but original style? Or maybe your sibling, even if just for adding "I stink" bubble to it? Well, I got you! Bullet; Red Heart Bullet; Red

Bullet; Red In style you see above I take portrait commissions now 
Bullet; Red 15eu per scan (if you let me upload it on dA, you can order a print from there, I'm okay with it!) 
Bullet; Red 10eu per scan if it's black and white (or any-color + white)
Bullet; Red 30eu per me sending you the original + shipping (from 3 to 6 euros should cover it)
Bullet; Red 20eu per me sending you the black(other-color) and white original + shipping (from 3 to 6 euros should cover it)

Disclaimer: whatever fits in my paper, I might cut off your shoulder, I might cut off some tall hair, be specific about what you want. 

Bullet; Blue A portrait picture sent to me via that ought to be drawn Heart I'll let you know if the picture is somehow not alright for me. (yes, it can be your fav character from a game / movie / etc., as long as I am capable of it...)
Bullet; Blue If it's an original character: look closely at my style and take into consideration that I might not be able to pull off everything as you imagine. Details are welcome!
Bullet; Blue Head + shoulders only. Unless the body part sticks out (see Deadpool for reference) 
Bullet; Blue Paypal transaction must be possible.
Bullet; Blue Let me know if I may upload it on dA


There’s a saying that trouble never walks alone, and it proven to me to be the case almost every time. If something goes wrong, more things go wrong very soon after, if not at the same time.

Right now I’m drowning in a slum. There’s no solutions to the old problems that resurfaced. I had a very great fight for half a year or so, but now it seems I’m losing the war again.

The oddest thing I found in this is that people stop talking to you when they notice you’re relapsing with depression again. Aka, they engage a conversation, but the moment you open your mouth, you can practically see them virtually running away. Yes, it is a little bit funny. And yes, I know friends aren’t therapists, there’s no reason to burden them, and expect a pat on the shoulder. But I spend so much time in utter silence, that I am a little bit overwhelmed.

Here’s the least bit of my problems: my only living grandmother was taken to nursing home, so that my mother and her brother wouldn’t have to constantly look after her – she barely moves, is blind, etc.: they’re afraid she might fall, break something, it’s constant anxiety. So nursing home was a very fine choice from my point of stand. But from my mother’s point, it’s the final step to the grave, and mentally she’s already burying her mother. Crying and all. I can’t blame her, no. But there’s a personal story underlying here, the one that maybe would explain why I feel invisible and/or imposing on people.

Other than that, close to a peak of my problems is my need to get another well paying job, because we’ve been set back SO far with the money, that I don’t even know how to start digging it up again. And it’s project time, so a lot of places don’t even hire right now, since everyone’s already working on this project or that, hands are all on deck and there’s no means to test new people and squeeze them in just right now. But that’s the thing, I need another job, right now.

I really can’t find a damn reason be alive. It’ll get better? I don’t care. I’ll travel? I don’t care. It’s gonna be alright? You guessed it, I don’t care enough. I’m exhausted, and no, I can’t take a break, there’s no fking time to take a damn break. Go work in a factory and once you get overwhelmed – which will likely happen in first two hours – try taking a break and enjoy that “you’ve been let go” slide down hill: bills not paid, hunger, potential homelessness. On top of it, there’s no taking a break from depression. If it’s there, it’s there. And if you stop, it speaks to you. And what it says only confirms the worst you thought. Take a damn break from giving such tips.

As Kiala said: reach out, don’t run away, and don’t wait for people like me to reach out to you. Because we won’t. Because we want to die, and silence from your end is a confirmation that we’re not needed. Reaching out to a helpline when you’re on a brink of falling is like a murderer calling up police to tell them they’re about to kill someone.

What am I even talking about, and why?…


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You wouldn't bear me talking about myself here. Rather ask me about any of those personal-space pages, I have plenty. Soukyan [JRV]

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Sapphiresenthiss Featured By Owner May 30, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the points :hug:
Clu-art Featured By Owner May 23, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for faving! :D

Sleepy Valley by Clu-art
leothefox Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2018   General Artist
First Tard Thank you for faving

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Clu-art Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for faving! :D

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Sophia-Eowyn Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much for your :+fav:s! :dummy:
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